Would it kill you to love me enough to stay?

		I will marry Geir Zahl.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Stavanger in our fabulous House.
		We will have 1 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Black Limo.
		I will spend my days as a Lawyer, and live happily ever after.

So I'm a bit shaky right now. The deal twith the movers seemed to go OK,  but then some shocking things happened and I got really scared a moment, but that was just a misunderstanding, so I'm now waiting for that misunderstanding to sort out.

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

linnsometimes  gave me N.

Naade - Kaizers Orchestra
Nice for a change - Zahl
Nok et offer - Skambankt
Når du ber din nød - Skambankt
Neighbour boy - Janove Ottesen

I got home to my mums yesterday and there they all were, my grandparents and uncle. Mums friend Trude came over after a little while and was talking about my little sister and travel-insurance (she's in spain) and I came yet again to think about insurance-crap. What if there's a fire, or I get robbed or something? I will lose all my things and have nothing left. So I asked Trude some questions (she works for If...) and she told me about different things. She said she insured a couple here the other day with assets for about 400 000, and they had to pay a sum I don't remember every month. And I was like "I think I own things for like, 30 000! Man that will be cheap" And she said that everyone's got more than they think, and the minimum they can insure is 200 000. "You don't want to call the insurance-company every time you buy a new sweater to add it on you assets sum" But she started asking what kind of other insurance I've got, and I was like... None.. So she told me about this thing for young people, where you insure your assets (innboforsikring, vet ikke det engelske ordet), travel-insurance and accident :D So she called me just now and fixed it all. I'm so glad I got this done before we move to Stavanger, cause I've been thinking about it a lot. And I think it only cost like 150 NOK every month.

I feel so responsible and old :P

Happy birthday, Geir!

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Monday I helped bellanachronism hide a body (-173 points). Last Tuesday I committed genocide... Sorry about that, linnsometimes (-5000 points). In January I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). In July I helped zombieskunk across the street (6 points). In August I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-5156 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich! Sincerely, jeangallup

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Whatever! Not been nice, no. I get it :P

So yeah, I'm so lucky! I've gone and gotten myself a fungal infection in my mouth, because I took some stupid penicillin!!! And it's not really as fun as it's cracked up to be! I must say. And now it has even spread to my lips and over my lip. I HATE IT! I really really do. I dunno how I can get rid of it, like overnight, either... Guess I'll have to beg my guardians when I go to bed...! And my boss told me she had the same thing a little over a week ago, and as a result she lost her fucking voice. It was good at the time, but now that I know the reason and begging the universe not to do the same thing to me, I don't think it's that good at all! And this on top of my rash that I suddenly got a couple of weeks ago. It's driving me crazy! I'm not used to this stuff!

 

My grandmother is now sitting beside me and talking about my mother, motherhood and why she acts like she does. I'm telling you one thing. No matter what happens, I will NEVER EVER have kids. I told grandma that I would not be like my mother if I ever get kids, and you know what she said? "You never know" is what she said. And then I said that if I can't know that, I will never have kids. Because if I can't even know that, I can certainly not know if I'm gonna be a good mum or not, if I will fuck up this kid or not. Why take the chance? Why the fuck do people take these chances? What if I become my mother? Will I become her anyway? If one day I realize that I'm just like her, I'm gonna fucking kill myself, cause that's no life for me, or the people around me! Only thinking about what the rest of the world thinks of me and my life. No thank you! I just get so mad at her sometimes I just wanna tear out the little that's left of my hair! And when grandma was talking about how it was to be a mother, that you always will think you know what's best for your kids, and you never stop nagging! I will not let myself become that!

 

I'm so sorry for all this, but I'm just so frustrated at the moment...! I'm just gonna look at my new wallpaper for a little while and hope it will make me feel loads better. I really need that now!

 

As if the fungus-shit wasn't enough (and the rash), grandma just had to bring up my mum...

So, my four friends in here, fill this out for me!

 

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?

06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) WHERE DID 26 GO I HAVE NO IDEA
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

I just got a haircut ^^

I just saw Across the universe. What a fucking lovely fantastic film! I LOVEIT!

Max was so wonderful and I can't forget him! I think I'm in love or somethin'

All the singing in the move was just... can't find the words for it. And Max... AAHAHAHAAAAAaaaaah. (that was not laughing, just so you know).

WHen I close my eyes he's swimming in my head! And smiling. OOOH! I love hiM!

I me and Isabell saw Hairspray yesterday, and it was good. Well, if I had posted yesterday after the movie, there would be alot of rambling, cause everybody in that movie was the sweetest of the sweetest, and John Travolta: HAHAHAHAHAHA! But now I've seen Across the universe, so there's not much to say at the moment. I want to watch Across the universe forever and ever! And Max ^^ Jude was really cute too, and looks like Paul McCartney, so that's not bad AT ALL, but there was something about Max. Plus he was really cool. Sort of the "bad guy". He wasn't a bad guy, but him vs. the others he might be put in that booth :P

Ahhhh Max

Luke has been annoying all day! Both to me and Isabell. I was gonna post things here, but my mind was suddenly blank! Pierre Robert sponsor something on TV, but the chick who's talking makes it sound like PR og bær. I miss Andrew. I think I'm gonna miss him alot for a long time. I want Desperate Housewives back! Now, not in the fall or something :( Penny Lane is doing great here! She's gained some weight and I'm thinking about giving her some salat or something. I love having her here! I just hope my landlord doesn't find out.

I got mail a couple of days ago about my electricity bill, and I logged in to pay it and get it over with, and then I saw that I had gotten another one too. One from Norgesenergi and one from Bodø Energi. I usually get them separate months, and then that's no problem, but now I got a bill on 1000 kr that wasn't planned at all, so it has ruined all my plans for this month. Fuck fuck fuck! Sometimes I hate living on m own!

Marianne, my heart and soul at the moment, just sent me the most beautiful video I've ever seen! I love it! And I love Christian. This video almost brought me to tears! ALMOST! I want a lion :( I really want him! Well this made my day, even though I got that stupid bill!

I'm home from Tromsø, and just now I checked my mail, and saw that somebody had sent me a message on Facebook, so I logged into see what it was. I was shocked! It was Frank! He had gone through a lot of trouble to find me. He said that I never told him my last name, but I told him Isabells, just to mention Valleymore, and he remembered. He found her, and then me through her Friends. He said that he had been thinking a lot about me, and so much about me that he didn't yet know. I didn't tell him that I couldn't stop thinking about him. He said he wanted to see me again, after the tour. I mentioned his wife, and he said things weren't going well (we spoke on msn), because she was mad every time he came home from a tour, be cause he had left her alone. That, among other things, was tearing up their marriage. He didn't know what he wanted with her at the time. But he wondered if we could be friends, running drunk out in the streets and smoke by the burned out fire, but I had to tell him I didn't have an oven here where I live. He said he could live with that :P But he had to leave for a sound check. So now I sit here with Isabell. Or she's shaking her boobs while eating Tortilla Chips Cheese.

It was kinda good being home for a couple of days. Seeing my family again, Siri and Evy and stuff. There's not much to tell about the trip actually. ad bought me new shower curtains, and mum bought me a soap-dispenser, a cup for toothbrushes and a cup for cotton or something. And I got new shoes! It pays well to come home :P Mum said so too. I guess my grandmother would then say that I should just move home to tromsø (she always says that. It's not fun, just gets me pissed), but if I lived in Tromsø I would never have gotten these things, so I think it's best I stay away from there :P

I'll end my post now, since Franks not online on msn, he stands as "away" so I'm gonna clean the floors now :P or take a smoke with Isabell, and maybe some coffee! ^^

I remember I loved Interview with the vampire, and it IS a lovely movie, but my God! Queen of the damned is so GOOD! I love it :O I've been dreaming about it on and off, and I can't get the soundtrack out of my head. And LESTAT! I LOVE HIM! I understand what Isabell is means when she's talking about him :P I'm looking forward to reading the books. And to find out what the hell happened in The vampire Lestat, and what from that book is in the Queen of the damned movie. It's confusing, cause Isabell told me that the thing with the band happens in The vampire Lestat, but The Vampire Lestat band is in Queen of the damned movie a lot, so is The Vampire Lestat (the band) in both books? Or did they just mix it in the movie. And if they did that, I cant draw a line between the books then, cause then I don't know what the hell happend in Queen of the damned, the book. After I'm done with Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse (again) I'm gonna read them. I WANT TO FIND OUT!!! Brad Pitt has fat lips! I just saw his face before me when I thought about reading Interview with the vampire. I'm thinking about the title. Interview with THE vampire. Not a vampire (I always thought that was what it was called, but nooooo! I was wrong. Isabell thought so too). I haven't got an impression that Louie is a very important vampire. Important enough to be called THE vampire. But anywho.

Isabell is downloading songs to my phone. I get three free songs, and now I have Veteranens Klage, Black and white movie and Trendsetter ^^
Isabell is someday gonna give Janove a big hug and hold around him. She could play the song. And she just made a song about Robert Pattinson.

Beer tomorrow! I'm looking forward to it!

I just have to tell you all about everything that happened last night. I was at the MCR concert in Oslo. I waited outside for ten hours, but it paid off. I was in the front row on Franks side, and it was AWESOME!!! I love Frank on stage :D The band was wild, and it was the best day of my life ;D After the concert I was hanging out on the pavement outside Spectrum, wondering if I should call a cab to get back to the apartment(it's on Grønland, and the neighbourhood isn't very good there, so I didn't feel save walking home alone), or if I should just find a bar and take a couple of beers. The streets were empty, but I heard music from a bar around the corner. I was looking at all my new t-shirts, cap, and hoodie. I think I used all my money that night. I even god Gerard's bottle of water off stage. That was really cool, but some fucked up chick punched me in the back of my head cause she didn't get it. I lighted my cigarette while thinking what to do when I suddenly heard noice behind me. Frank was walking towards me, and I felt my heart in my brain. He walked right by, and I couldn't say anything. I saw him walking into a 7/11 store. I thought I was gonna shit myself. I kept staring at the little kiosk, my brain a million miles away. Suddenly my brain landed and Frank was right in front of be, moving his mouth. I had to, shakingly, ask him to repeat it, and he asked me what I was doing there. I told him my dilemma, he sat down and gave me a beer, and opened one for himself. He said I could drink a beer while I was thinking. We sat there talking until he just ran away from me. I didn't understand why he did that, but before I could think he was back with more beer. We sat there talking until it got too cold. We went to the bar around the corner because I had to take a piss, and then walked home to the apartment I had loaned from Rita, mom's cousin. Frank really liked Marte, Rita's cat, and the apartment. He called it cozy. We put on some music (Arctic Monkeys) and, as the good kids we are, smoking by the burned out fireplace. We found some more beer there, and I remember thinking I was gonna replace it, but come to think of it, I never got around to do it. I gotta thank her for the beers. We were jumping around to the music until I crashed into the table. Then we went outside for a while, where there was room to move around. It was 7 in the morning, so we stayed safely in the alley. Rita's neighbour let their dog out(Rita says they do that a lot, and let him stay loose there alone), so we played with him for a while, took a smoke outside (it was good) and went inside to sleep. I fixed the sofa-bed for Frank, took Marte and slept in Rita's room. When I woke up the day after Frank had loaned my keys (that bastard) walked over to the Mix kiosk and bought coffee. I almost kissed him, cause coffee was just what I needed then. After a little talking Frank had to get back to the band cause of the concert in Sweden that night, and I had to pack and get home. I got his e-mail address and a peck on the cheek and he walked out the door. It was a sad moment. But a night I will never forget.

So i did this thing Linn and Isabell did, to name 10 fictional characters ever in history that i have the hots for, or in my own words; who i want to fuck the brains out of. I'll start right away before work.

1 - Ron Weasley
2 - Edward Cullen
3 - Dirk Vaundrell
4 - Remus Lupin
5 - Sirius Black
6 - Mark Darcy
7 - Pete Dunham
8 - Elwood Blues (1 movie)
9 - Noah Calhoun
10 - Tony Montana

now i'm off :D

So I stole this from Isabell(don't know how to link that) and since I'm writing this text after taking the survey I just want to say that I feel like a lesbian. Enjoy!

You Should Play the Drums

You are often hyper, restless, and full of a little too much zeal. However, people may be surprised to know that you can focus your energy well. You are driven and engaged enough to be a great drummer... and you have the stamina to practice for hours. In fact, when you can channel your energy productively, it only increases! You are independent and spirited... but also consistent. You can definitely keep the beat. You work well in a group and contribute heartily - without needing to take the lead. Your dominant personality characteristic: your aggression Your secondary personality characteristic: your precision

I'm so weak!

Not a big day, no. Both me and Isabell are tired or something. Not a lot of energy we might say. She's taking a shit at the moment. And I'm listening to Morten Abel and watching tv. Sirius came home today :D Been away many days now. It's so good to have him back. And he just wants to cuddle and eat our chocolatecovered lips. Luke is the same old same old :P Always in the mood for cuddle, but sleeps mostly in the white chair. He was bugging Isabell this morning by not removing his tale from her face when she told him to, so she trew him out :P Not much has changed with him! He has even ruined my ps2! He can make me mad. I'm actually thinking about take him to the vet. I have to do something, cause it can't be like this! And the peeing inside. Twice before new year's I had to was away catpiss from the floor! There must be something wrong with him, I just don't know what! But I do love him very much, just to have that clear! He's just a challenge...

Today me and Isabell have been babysitting Lucan. It was really fun, but I had to change a poopydiper. Not fun at all! But we made some food, cuddled and hunted on each other.

Other than that I've been hanging out with Frankie and Isabell. Good times ;D We do have fun togheter. I want a slice of bread, I think. Or maybe not. Maybe I just want a cigarette.

My mum called me today. She told me she had bad news, and I thought of my great-grandmother and my stepdad. But it was Maria. She's in the hospital after a suicide-attempt. Bit of a shocker I must say. So I called my dad, cause I thought he should know, so he drove to the hospital. I bet Maria hates me now, cause she didn't want him to know.

So that was my day :P